It begins with a dark glowing ember, something black burning it's way out of me. Searing the flesh, pain is the only thing I feel, scars all I see. Oh no the fire's burning my insides again, what can I do to silence my desire tonight? Face consumer reason leaving all the ashes there, you won't catch me for granting my decision, I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear, I can't just close my eyes. I know that it's killing me, and it's poisoning the best of me, but I say, I don't want to believe. So let me tell you boy, tell you boy, about the lies I lead. That is how it kills, I got some flames and gasoline Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head Wreckage from the blast, it often shakes me to the floor (to the floor) I know it's over but I can't go home tonight. And after this I feel as empty as the night before, feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more. Masochistic, nihilistic, gurging wrecked up thoughts My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it. I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear, I can't just close my eyes (my eyes, my eyes, my f**king eyes) I know that it's killing me, and it's poisoning the best of me, but I say, I don't want to believe. So let me tell you boy, tell you boy, about the lies I lead. Calling, calling out. The darkness reaches up my soul, I'm riddled with self-doubt. Crawling, crawling out, my will to fight will more than suffice, while others will lay down. It's only as dark as you make it. I know that it's killing me, and it's poisoning the best of me, but I say, I don't want to believe. So let me tell you boy, tell you boy, about the lies I lead.