Now you don't see me I have closed my eyes but now I am lost you closed your eyes despair dancing in my heart as I ran to escape my tears I, I am alone, there is no God where I am rise, the memories now, I'm far away feel, it's all so useless I, I blame life for all this I'm jealous, coming to grief sometimes I'm not afraid sometimes I wish you my pain and sometimes I hate and if I was a cat I would stare all the time with depth in my eyes right into your stars time flashes in your eyes something bigger than life