Wanting, watching, debating, on which way to run to, Haunted, voices, craving, someone to run to I haven't lost myself in a long time, I never tried to care when I wanted to, I just want to be part of something, I just want to be real like you Sometimes, I feel like a monster, And times, I feel like a saint, I'm on my knees, you're my favorite disease, Silent, warnings, tell me, that I've let things come undone, Show me, teach me, the way to heaven, 'cause no other way can Pre Ch I haven't lost myself in a long time, I never tried to care when I wanted to, I just wanted to be part of something, I just wanted be real like you Sometimes, I feel like a monster, And times, I feel like a saint, I'm on my knees, you're my favorite disease, Closer, closer, closer to You, I need to be closer, have closure, and get closer to You, Every step I take..... Sometimes, I feel like a monster, At times, I feel like a saint, I'm on my knees, you're my favorite disease, And I love the way you kill me, Love the way you heal me I Love the way you kill me, Love the way you heal me I love the way you kill me, Love the way you heal me